Deep in prayer one evening, I asked the Lord if I really loved Him. I was awestruck when He said in clear response, “If you love me, you will write.” This blog is thus born out of love for God and is for the sake of those whom God loves and cares deeply for. Christ died for you and He is coming back for you.

In high school, I was an argumentative, militant atheist and exceptional student with a 4.7 GPA. Nonetheless, I was suicidal, hopeless, and purposeless; constantly on the edge of great tragedy. Life improved briefly, then deteriorated when I went away to college. Succumbing there to delusions of grandeur, I forsook all my remaining elements of good fortune in a full-hearted attempt to cure cancer. My obsessively dedicated quest stripped me of everything I had, with the exception of my car in which I was then forced to live. I dove headfirst into trouble. More than once, I was certain I had passed the threshold of no return, destined to die insane… and soon. My intuition was indeed accurate about this, but God intervened. During this time, I encountered Jesus powerfully time and time again. Nothing else could have made me well. There was no grasping for soundness of mind except for that which I received through knowing Him. Jesus is restorative. He is our healer. For this, I am grateful and feel compelled to tell of His glory. We all want to think ourselves wise, but people still in my old shoes need to know that true wisdom derives from seeking and surrendering to Christ. 

Ours is a supernatural faith and this faith belongs to the humble. God abhors the proud. I had no eyes to see Him until He humbled me sufficiently. Arrogance is a mighty trap. If you long for what is good, then be earnest and seek God. Seek and you shall find. Grab hold of Him and He will not let you go. Then, when He comes back, He will raise you up to Himself. 

Felix